Roots of Evility

From "Roots of Evility" (2002)

I did wish I was dead
So that I would suffer
the painful death of eternity
that delightful pain
That lasts for ever and ever
The sleep of death, the nightmares...
The coldness of body and mind
Final chapter of my story
Is the chapter of giving into pain
Numbing journey through the eternity
the painful death of eternity
Forgetfulness of the past of life
That existed before the ages began
I forget, I drown, I dream
the painful death of eternity
Why I do not know but I know
the painful death of eternity
It called me by name when I lived
Now that I am dead I only dream
of the painful death of eternity
In mockery of those that are alive
In mockery of things that live
Why the painful death of eternity
became mine is no secret
I believe in desecration
and in the tragedy of man
I go back to the time
When I was a human being
Before I saw the painful light
Before there was a death
of these eternal years
Fostered in birth by death
Calmed by doomsday prophecies
Born under the funeral moons
Ill-fated stars of damnation
The pallor of my face
It is the pallor of death
The darkness of my hair
It is the darkness of death
The wine I drink is not the blood of life
The bread I eat is not the body of life
It is the wine of death I drink
It is the bread of death I eat
I died so many years ago
And now I suffer from the
Painful death of eternity