Fool April: 10.99


just the way I wanted
want to be in control
nothing left nothing right
on my own

criticizing everyone
everyone around me
I can read their mind
I see through their souls

where was I when you needed me?
I was right where I mean to be
occupied ignoring life
occupied ignoring you

I've gone as low as I can go
but still I'm sinking
estranging everyone I know
from the crest of the wave
I see it coming
what’s left of me will be found
at ten point ninety nine

I tried looking through the mirror
but I did not succeed
it kept showing me
what I don't want to see

who the hell am I to judge you
I need to judge myself
Need to wake up now
lose control somehow

a shadow casted by my soul
needs more than light to disappear
it shades the path you will take
twisting the choices you will make

I've gone as low as I can go…